Raw LLM Responses

I wouldn't say I argue against Myself, but if u could ask anyone who knows Me, from a friend ( there ain't many ) to even a recent councilor, you'll always hear about Me, I Know where I am, I know how and why I got here, to this point, I know the thing's that over time were, u can say, were my fault, and the things that were the fair and of others, and I'm ( not my words ) surprisingly honest in that regard. What I've clearly seen is that certain people will quickly get frustrated talking to me about these things because I do know all those things I'm forthcoming and honest about it all, and what seems to really upset people, is that I even know how to change things for myself, by which I mean simply that I'm fully aware again, of what's wrong and why I'm here and why things aren't getting better and I'm fully aware of what I Can and what I could and should do, to begin to fix things, to begin to move forward with my life again, in positivity, but for some reason, and this is honestly the only part I'm really unsure of, is WHY I CAN'T??!!? WHY HAVE I LOST THE FIGHT IN MYSELF TO KEEP GOING NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS TO ME??!!? I've been that way most of My life, I mean the desire to fight through whatever is happening, because starting at what I consider to be a pretty young age, ( pre- teenage yrs ) - ai had to, I had to adopt that way of thinking literally for survival, but after decade of life, Just when I thought and felt for the first time in my life, that things were good, I had my own family, broke my back working to care for them and to make sure my kids never had to find out what it felt like to experience those kinds of negative things, I don't want to dive too deep into details here because I get upset and people don't really want to hear any of it anyway, but, yeah, whatever, I lost everything and everyone, not because I did anything wrong, anything bad, well, beyond obviously marrying the wrong girl..... I Just don't......... Idk.....