Raw LLM Responses

for me i am a person who has been drawing for a long time and my issue is when i draw something i need reference, i am not good at making up things on my own and my imagination feels very limited due to my visualization ability isn't very good and when i look up a reference i take too much of said drawing and then the drawing don't feel like my own it makes me depressed and then i refuse to draw or when i do suddenly muster up and try and draw i sit down draw lines for 5 minutes and give up due to my lines not looking good to me nor do i know what to draw even when i do look up reference i end up scrolling around on Pinterest for way too long and don't end up drawing cause seeing peoples amazing work makes me depressed of how better everyone's else's imagination is compared to mine, i don't have artist friends never have and the friends i do have don't care about art the way i do i like AI because it gives me a rough idea of what i wanna draw it gives me a shape or a color i never thought to use it gives me something to look at ai art is what you use it for i use it as a tool to help me draw or give me something visual to look at which is i dont see anyone say anywhere either people are hardcore against AI cause they say its bad because artist said so but the other side who hardcore defend it dont mention the things it COULD be used for like give someone who isnt really good at visualizing or bad at explaining make something to then commission a real artist